Friday, August 10, 2007

memory lane...

As I was cleaning today I was reading some old letters and cards...and reminiscing the good, crazy and hard times. Sometimes I enjoy taking a trip down memory lane, but not always. I think I've finally gotten to a point where my trip down memory lane allows me to see my growth and change. Sometimes I regret things, like not listening to the advice of my friends...but in the end, I realize that God never left me. He was definitely always with me, and still is.

Pictures, letters, cards...those help me to remember my past. I sometimes wonder "what if" or maybe my life might not be what it is now had I chosen or done things differently int the past. God's been teaching me that taking that trip down memory lane shouldn't be "what if's" but it should be more did i have i changed since then..and what did i learn.

It's so amazing how God uses our memories and past experiences to teach us things about ourselves and shows us ways we can change. I'm learning that. But it's a process.

I feel like I've grown so much since I graduated high school and throughout college. I'm so glad that I went away to school. Its given me an appreciation for home, but I also feel that maybe God's calling me to come back home after i graduate.

Since I led a few bible studies and helped out several times with the Youth group at church, a part of me feels as though God might be calling me to this ministry. Not as a job, but as a part of the church. Since I grew up in this church I kinda feel a sense of responsibility and ministry to give back what I've received. I'm super excited for this youth group having new leadership and new teachers helping out. I'm kinda sad that I'll be leaving soon. But I can't wait to see what God has in store!

Oregon bound in 11 days.