tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25671176527945329822024-03-13T17:37:18.878-10:00Beauty in the broken"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
—Romans 15:13lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.comBlogger30125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-54967798926275828542011-09-27T21:05:00.003-10:002011-09-27T21:09:41.595-10:00Blessings!Wow, I can't believe I haven't blogged in 2 years! Life has changed in several ways, but all I can say is I am feeling the blessings of God's hand in my life. Despite the stressfulness and never-ending list of to-do's, God has a purpose for everything! I have been learning that God's purpose is not to bring me comfort, not to make me happy, not to provide me with what I want, but to grow my faith and bring glory to Him in everything I do! I have been challenged way more than I've ever been challenged, but I am growing SO much from it! <div>I am learning to see the good in every situation even if everything in me wants to complain and vent and just give up hope! But...I am learning to see things through His eyes & trust that He has a purpose for everything that I encounter. :)</div>lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-38068333399368156652009-12-01T19:41:00.003-10:002009-12-01T20:13:47.080-10:00True ContentmentI am so thankful for my relationship with my heavenly Prince. He has carried me through the craziness of life's ups and downs and I can't imagine my life without Him. I always feel so unworthy of His love, grace and mercy, yet I need it so desperately. Sometimes I wonder how he can forgive me over and over again for being plain dumb and ignoring him. So many times I have thought that I could figure things out on my own, that maybe things would work out if I just continue on in a relationship that isn't healthy. But in the depths of my heart I know what is right and who I love more than anything in this world. He always brings me back to him somehow, even if it means tearing my world into pieces. <div><br /></div><div>I have much to be thankful for and I hate that feeling that I still want more. I have my "dream" job and am doing what I love (even if it gets overwhelming at times). I have a roof over my head, a great family, amazing friends and a lot of little things that I am thankful for. This time of transitioning is definitely harder than being in college. I guess when I was in college my focus was of graduating college and getting good grades. The next step was finding a job in my field, which I have, and the next would be marriage & a family, and own a house or apartment. </div><div><br /></div><div>In the past month I have been so stressed and overwhelmed with work & PD classes that it made me foresee my future. I was doubting and wondering how life would be while working in a high-demanding, never-ENDing job while being a MOM/wife. ahhh! I just can't imagine how working Mom's do it all and keep their sanity! I realized that I am grateful to be starting out now while I have the extra time and openness in my life at the moment to work & take classes. Even though it may be extremely difficult at times, I think it'll be worth it later on down the road. </div><div><br /></div><div>Contentment is what I'm always striving for, and it is when I am not content that I get myself into trouble. I love this quote that I read in a magazine..."<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;"><b><i>May our desire to have what God has kept from us (marriage, family, $, etc) not keep us from ENJOYING what he has given to us." </i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#000000;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">I constantly have to remind myself of this, because I'm always the one looking back on the past and missing it, when I usually wasn't enjoying it at the time. I am learning to trust the One who knows me best, to take one day at a time and keep my eyes fixed on Him; the author and perfecter of my faith. </span></span></b></span></div>lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-77031221243374353132009-10-03T22:59:00.003-10:002009-10-03T23:42:12.475-10:00Accepting ChangesThe past year and a half has been a season of adjustment. Life after college is so different and God has done the unexpected in my life. I had thought I knew where God was going to take me in my life and what He was going to have me do, but those were ultimately <i>my </i>plans. So of course <i>my plans </i>did not align with God's great plans for me. I never thought I'd be teaching while enjoying it and thriving! God has totally provided for my every need over the past year and a half! I am so blessed in many ways and am very thankful for ALL of the new friends and coworkers that he's placed in my life. They're such a blessing to have! <div><br /></div><div>Last month, when I turned 23, I realized that the past year was a "transitioning" year for me. It was a big transition to come home after being away at college for the past 4 years. It was weird living at home again, not having friends around 24/7, and maintaining friendships across the ocean. I guess you can say, that it made me realize who were really my close friends. I love how many different ways of communicating exist, yet for some people, it is a challenge to keep in touch. I think it really depends on how much the friendship means to both sides. </div><div><br /></div><div>The great blessing has been having new friends in my life and of course continuing to develop the friendships that I made in college. It was so nice having 3 shades come and visit me! We had a blast and I loved having them here in my "world"! So overall, it has been a tough and exciting time of transitioning, but I have learned to accept the changes that have happened and I am looking forward to what else God has in store for me :)</div>lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-45541262549674544042009-03-30T23:06:00.002-10:002009-03-30T23:08:01.692-10:00Who I wanna be<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(160, 82, 45); font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px; -webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; "><strong><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">I started reading a new book and was reminded that Jesus Christ needs to be the love of my life, the Prince Charming, my groom...this song is who I want to be when others see me...</span></div><div><br /></div>She's In Love by According to John</strong><br /><br />What a beautiful smile<br />A radiant girl<br />Fell in love first time I saw her<br />She stays on my mind<br />I’d give anything<br />To know everything about her<br /><br />Pre-Chorus:<br />There’s light in her eyes<br />And I know it’s all for him<br />She carries on and on<br />Like he was her best friend<br /><br />Chorus:<br />She’s in love (echo)<br />It’s not hard to see<br />But I would like to believe it was with me<br />Someone got a hold of her heart<br />And he won’t let go<br />And I know<br />She’s in love<br /><br />Verse2:<br />She looks to the sky<br />When she talks about him<br />She believes he hung the moon<br />Said he had to go away<br />She waits for his return<br />Says he’s coming for her soon<br /><br />Pre-Chorus2:<br />How can this be fair?<br />This guy can walk on water<br />Don’t guess I’ve got a prayer<br />He’s written love letters - to reach her<br /><br />Bridge:<br />She worships the ground he walks on<br />She just smiles when she says his name<br />It’s a match made in heaven<br />I can’t compete with the King of Kings </span>lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-19170493177258668232009-02-09T15:27:00.004-10:002009-02-09T17:21:08.805-10:00A New Year..Wow! I didn't realize I haven't posted a blog in the New Year! This year is already going by so fast. I was so excited because of my trip to Oregon, which was SO MUCH FUN! I think that it was possibly the best trip I've ever been on, and really did NOT want to leave.<br /><br />Well, let's go back in time to the beginning of this year. It started off in Cali w/ the Rose Bowl Parade, partying with my family, Disneyland, more family time and lots of good food. And of course, ozoni -- mochi good luck soup!<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SZDYyXr5rMI/AAAAAAAAADM/lZL9uV5u2tI/s1600-h/2009_0101room250155.JPG"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SZDYyXr5rMI/AAAAAAAAADM/lZL9uV5u2tI/s320/2009_0101room250155.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5300975121278282946" border="0" /></a><br /><br />So the best part about this year so far was going to Oregon and seeing my wonderful amazing friends that I miss with all my heart! I got to hang out with Jodi & go shopping, spend time with my roomie, and of course spend time with Three Shades! The Sisterhood was reunited and it felt oh so good! Good memories for sure that I will cherish! I can't wait til our next reunion! I'm so so blessed with such great, meaningful and deep friendships with these women of the Lord. All of them!<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SZDydLp2AXI/AAAAAAAAADU/rMct7VAfQRI/s1600-h/Oregon+09+031.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SZDydLp2AXI/AAAAAAAAADU/rMct7VAfQRI/s320/Oregon+09+031.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5301003344573497714" border="0" /></a><br />♥lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-8011101633133448392008-11-27T15:36:00.002-10:002008-11-27T15:45:18.293-10:00Give ThanksThanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays and last night exemplified the reasons why I love thanksgiving so much. The top on my list of what I'm thankful for is that I get to be home for thanksgiving with my family. We usually have thanksgiving dinner on Wednesday night with our immediate family. It was a blast spending time with my family---listening to my Grandpa's childhood stories, my cousin talking nonstop, questions about these "high school relationships" that they are going through, and of course eating 'ono licious food! I was gonna take a picture of it, but decided not to.<br /><br />So I decided to try and make the green bean casserole that I grew to love on the mainland. It turned out pretty good! :) The stuffing was yummy, my Mom's rolls, and my Aunty's pumpkin crunch squares were scrumptious!<br /><br />Here's my mini list of what I'm thankful for...<br />*God's blessings despite my feelings of unworthiness<br />*Being home for thanksgiving this year<br />*Having a job--my own classroom!<br />*Getting paid for teaching!<br />*my friends--even though some are far away<br />*music--can't live without it<br />*and of course my family!<br /><br />Colossians 3:<span id="en-NIV-29517" class="sup">15</span>Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. <span id="en-NIV-29518" class="sup">16</span>Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. <span id="en-NIV-29519" class="sup">17</span>And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.<br /><br />Happy Thanksgiving!lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-39476359663455992008-11-25T20:31:00.004-10:002008-11-25T20:44:26.121-10:00scrapbooking<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SSzwE9wH53I/AAAAAAAAAC8/FIDSFgLxsgQ/s1600-h/Three+Shades+014.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SSzwE9wH53I/AAAAAAAAAC8/FIDSFgLxsgQ/s320/Three+Shades+014.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5272853231830558578" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SSzvfFuAOZI/AAAAAAAAAC0/b8p8dxYyzOQ/s1600-h/Three+Shades+004.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SSzvfFuAOZI/AAAAAAAAAC0/b8p8dxYyzOQ/s320/Three+Shades+004.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5272852581134121362" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SSzvABMU4VI/AAAAAAAAACs/aaoirXpLYT8/s1600-h/Three+Shades+011.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/SSzvABMU4VI/AAAAAAAAACs/aaoirXpLYT8/s320/Three+Shades+011.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5272852047343182162" border="0" /></a><br />So I've been learning the art and craft of scrapbooking...I have so many pictures and my current "album in process" is my Juniors Abroad album. I started it and have yet to finish it... I think I finished my Amsterdam pictures, but need to move on to Belgium, and Paris!! Tomorrow I plan on showing my class pictures from my trip...and of course looking for symmetry in different land marks...such as the "Eiffel Tower".<br /><br />Anyway, I thought I'd post up some pictures from the only album that I finished titled "Three Shades." It is basically the love, life and friendship of what started out as a flute trio. Rachael, of course thought we needed a group name and chose "three shades." For some reason we meant to pick something better but of course that never happened, thus making us "three shades" for life. :) We are also the "Sisterhood of the traveling sweatpants." I know it's so cheesy, but we love it! It makes it so much easier and consistent to keep in touch with each other, with me being an ocean away from them.<br /><br />I still really want to travel to Japan someday. And I want to go back to Europe--Belgium & Paris, especially! And Italy, Germany, etc etc. Someday...:) And New York too!lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-43958455470331845742008-11-22T19:23:00.003-10:002008-11-23T14:16:06.483-10:00FallToday has been a rainy day and it makes me miss Oregon and the rain that I always hated. Its funny how you miss the things that you once hated. weird. I have been missing the fall weather, fall leaves and all of the fun stuff that come with the season. I love living in "paradise" but I miss the change of scenery, the change in weather and the beauty of the seasons.<br /><br />I got to help out with the college fair to talk to high school students about Fox. It brought back all of the memories of college--roommates, the SEASONS, classes, studying, laptop!, and everything that comes with the package of going to Fox. I wouldn't trade it for anything. Talking to these Hawaii kids was fun because I could relate to them, having grown up here in hawaii. I kept on advertising the beautiful fall season and experiencing the cold :)<br /><br />I even talked to my students about Fall and of course added the reasons why the leaves change colors and that they eventually fall. Many of them have traveled being in the military, so they have experienced it. The ones that have never left Hawaii, it gave them a chance to see the REAL leaves from Oregon and to hear us talk about it! Thanks Rachael for sending those! They were very excited!!<br /><br />I can't wait to go up to Oregon in January! It's getting closer! I don't know how much I'll like the cold again though...i'm gonna freeze! hehe. I can't wait to spend time with my friends again!!<br /><br />Anyways, back to the rainy day today....all I did was pretty much relax, lay around and watch TV and of course sleep off and on. I love weekends! Thank the Lord the weather is getting cooler. It makes it easier to sleep, but then harder to get out of bed.lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-41260160065140440752008-09-17T19:37:00.002-10:002008-09-17T20:08:19.042-10:00another year...Gosh, I can't believe I'm another year older...I'm 22! I feel like I just turned 21. It's so strange. I can no longer say that I'm 21.<br /><br />I feel so old although everyone says that I'm so young. Teaching makes me feel really old and I'm sure my students think I'm old too. haha. I love teaching, despite the craziness and stressfulness. I love my students! They are so much fun. They made me little presents, sang happy birthday to me, and bought me some gifts. It was so cute and precious :) I believe these are the moments of satisfaction as a teacher..when your students show you that they care too.<br /><br />Even though I was a little sad about not being able to celebrate my birthday with my friends, my kids and family made it special..and oh, so did the other teachers! :) I felt special today! This getting older business still can be fun...hehe.<br /><br />So I was thinking today, that my goal this year should be and is going to be to find true contentment in Christ. Not just to say it, but to apply it to my life. I am so blessed beyond measure, literally. Great class, great school, great coworkers, great family, great friends (despite the fact that they are many miles away). May I learn to thank God always for what he's blessed me with daily. And may I dwell on the blessings and not the things I want, and may I continually deepen my walk with the lover of my soul. I'm fixing my eyes solely on Him, the author and perfecter of my faith. May I <span style="font-style: italic;">trust with all my heart, soul and mind</span> that He has his hand and best interest in mind for me and that everything will come in His timing. :)lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-74207464476294623102008-07-22T18:08:00.003-10:002008-07-22T19:32:09.009-10:00Whose plans...?So after just deciding to be patient, wait and see what happens, I get a call for an interview for a teaching position. The call just so happened to come at a somewhat inconvenient time. I was on my way to Bellows for our annual family camp. Despite having some hesitations about accepting the interview, I agreed and decided to just see what happens. So after an AMAZING time with my family at camp, I was completely exhausted and had to prepare for my interview. As I prepared and prayed about it, I kept thinking that it would just be a practice interview and that I would substitute for this coming school year. That way I can go to Oregon & visit, and decide what to do. I thought I had that all figured out and I was totally fine with "my" plan.<br /><br />My interview went well and I asked questions and talked about my experiences, and still felt that I probably wouldn't get the job because other people were interviewed besides me. I also admit that I knew I would have to work really hard, and of course that meant that I can't be so lazy anymore. So I was being a little bit selfish.. I wasn't expecting to hear back until today or tomorrow. But I got a call back yesterday with an offer for a 3rd grade position. I was very surprised and excited and apprehensive. So I decided to pray about it over night and make my final decision in the morning. At first, I was thinking that I had to accept it because it's an amazing opportunity, the school seems great, but then I would start REALLY soon, and I wouldn't have much time to prepare..<br /><br />So as I prayed, talked with my family & friends about it I knew what the right decision was. But I still was uncertain because of my selfishness (again). I really was set on substituting, and I knew that time was crunching down before the school year began. But somehow in the back of my mind, I just had a feeling that I was going to get an offer and have a job. And guess what? I read the daily devotional by the Purpose Driven Life, and it said this:<br /><ul style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0); font-family: verdana;"><li><span style="font-size:85%;">God is working in you, giving you the desire to obey him and the power to do what pleases him. Philippians 2:13 (NLT)</span></li></ul>Now that to me was a very clear indicator that God was going to take care of the details if I choose to obey Him and accept the job offer. God's timing is always perfect, yet it never seems perfect to me. He taught me that His blessings come when I least expect it and sometimes when it seems inconvenient for me. I am thrilled and blessed about this opportunity. I have LOTS to do, lots to learn...but I know that my God will be with me every step of the way. And, I even have a supportive family, friends, and mentors who have been through this experience themselves.<br /><br />So I'm stepping out in faith, having full confidence that this school year will be full of joy, challenges, growth, and accomplishments. I didn't expect this at all, but I know that I'm not in this alone. I'm willing to take this leap and see where it leads...:)lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-12875576427104148252008-06-22T18:17:00.003-10:002008-06-22T18:35:51.311-10:00Standing firmSummer school is going pretty good so far. I didn't know how exhausting it is for such a short amount of time-4 hours. It's a good amount of time though and nice so the kids can have fun too in the summer time. Having 31 kids is huge and noisy and stressful. I love teaching, no doubt, but managing them is the toughest part. Everyone that I've talked to keeps telling me that I HAVE to "put my foot down"/lay down the law, be tough and stand firm. My response is always that it's really not in my nature to be "mean/firm." I'm practicing it and it's good that I have this summer school experience to learn and practice being firm.<br /><br />It's just exhausting and takes so much of my energy. My prayer is that I seek God's guidance in everything, especially through the last weeks.<br /><br />Other than school, I miss my friends. It's not the same living apart from them, and talking over the phone doesn't even compare to being with each other in person. I miss the fun, crazy times with the roommates, three shades, and my other loves! Maybe I will move back...:P<br /><br />I'm waiting for God's call on my life. I know He has great things in store for me, so I guess you could say i'm in the time of waiting and listening for His voice and direction.lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-79408919369363595052008-05-11T15:56:00.001-10:002008-05-11T16:12:38.965-10:00♥LoVe.iS.heRe♥I keep on hearing this song on the radio and it always reminds me that God is <span style="font-weight: bold;">always </span>present and that he <span style="font-style: italic;">never </span>stops loving us. I wonder why I forget that so often, especially when I don't feel or see God in my life. I know that he's with me, but maybe i need to acknowledge his presence.<br /><br />I am confused about life--what to do, where to go/live, looking back over the past 4 years of college, missing friends & wondering if and when I'll have those moments again... So many thoughts flood my head and heart. I feel such a heavy burden and I can't put a specific name on it because I know it's many of these things that are weighing on me. Now that college is over I have a degree that pretty much tells me what I'll be doing for the rest of my life. But do I want to get right into it right away? Or do I want to explore and take leaps of faith to serve the God who has carried and blessed me more than I ever imagined?<br /><span style="font-style: italic;">...so many questions, without answers...</span><br /><br />I don't feel any specific call on my life right now. Maybe it's because I'm not searching God's will and in prayer about it. I guess I'm being lazy and that's why I don't feel that tug on my heart.<br /><br />It's so weird to realize that I'm not going back to Fox. That I'm not just home for the summer. It's really weird and sad because I won't be apart of the Fox life....but I have so many memories of all the experiences and things I've learned. Leaving college & living in the <span style="font-style: italic;">real world</span> is harder than i thought... But I know that whatever I do & wherever I go someone is always going to be with me, carrying me, comforting me and ♥<span style="font-style: italic;">loving </span>me. :)<br /><blockquote><p><strong>Tenth Avenue North - Love Is Here</strong><br />Come to the waters<br />You who thirst and you’ll thirst no more<br />Come to the Father<br />You who work and you’ll work no more</p> <p>All you who labor in vain<br />And to the broken and shamed</p> <p>Love is here<br />Love is now<br />Love is pouring from His hands from His brow<br />Love is near it satisfies<br />Streams of mercy flowing from His side<br />Cause Love is here</p> <p>Come to the treasure<br />You who search and you’ll search no more<br />Come to the lover<br />You who want and you’ll want no more</p> <p>All you who labor in vain<br />And to the broken and shamed</p> <p>And to the bruised and fallen<br />Captives bound and brokenhearted<br />He is the Lord, He is the Lord<br />By His stripes He’s paid our ransom<br />From His wounds we drink salvation<br />He is the Lord, He is the Lord</p> <p>Love is here<br />Love is now<br />Love is pouring from His hands from His brow<br />Love is near it satisfies<br />Streams of mercy flowing from His side</p></blockquote>lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-6530258600449994232008-04-17T20:47:00.003-10:002008-04-18T10:16:54.084-10:00a bittersweet time9 days until graduation!!!<br /><br />I'm sooo unbelievably excited to graduate and can't believe this day is finally coming!!! The past 4 years have been full of growth, real friendships, laughter, breakdowns, challenges, pain, frosty's from Wendy's, studying, sleeping, partying, watching movies, flutes, prayer, tears, meaningful conversations, dancing hula, swinging in the rain, <span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">three </span>shades, worship, crazy roommates, music, walking dates, star-gazing, hawaii dinners love, hugs and the list goes on....boys...<br /><br />I don't think their is anything I really regret except for maybe one thing, but through all of these experiences I have learned soo much and grown soo much! So in the end I wouldn't trade any of it for anything else. Even the heartbreaks and breakdowns...I don't regret them. Because now I look back and see how God brought me through it all and I wouldn't be where I am today if I didn't go through those experiences.<br /><br />So this is a bittersweet time because it's the close of my college career. I'll be getting my degree and everything that comes with the title. But I'm leaving behind so many memories and so many amazing friends that I dearly love with all my heart (not as much as Jesus). I never knew I could find such amazing people, and this community of fellowship. I have been blessed more than I ever expected through my friends, professors and others.<br /><br />It's so hard to say goodbye, but I know that it is time to say goodbye...to this community. I've been molded and am still being molded by this community of believers and I feel prepared for the world that lies before me. God has given me desires to serve, whether it be in the US or in another country. I'm excited to see what he has in store for me and to be able to love on others as I have been loved here.<br /><br />Yet, it's so hard to say goodbye to the ones who have loved me and I them. I'm grateful for the times we've had together and I wish we never have to part. But I also know that someday we will be together again and I can't wait for that day! :)lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-40045946418043534852008-04-09T20:36:00.003-10:002008-04-09T20:45:59.883-10:00change of my plans?So I found out that I'm an alternate for the JET program. At first I was disappointed, and I guess I still am. I got my hopes up about it and everyone was excited for me. I was pretty confident about it, but still that unknown-ness of it all was still up in the air. And the question still lingered as to whether or not it's a part of God's plan or my plan? I still don't know the answer to that and a friend reminded me something important today....that it's the beauty of life...the not knowing part of what God's will is.<br /><br />After getting the email about it, it really sucked. I questioned why my hopes for it were so high and I wondered how this greatly affects my future job decision making/search. I guess I did have my doubts about the JET and I was apprehensive about even applying and trying for it. But then I thought, why not? I won't have any real job commitments yet, it'd be a great opportunity to teach in another country, travel and explore. But maybe God has other plans for me that are far greater...possibly. I'm just going to see what God has in store for me.<br /><br />The exciting news is that I have a job teaching summer school! It is seriously a blessing and I'm super excited and grateful for my first teaching opportunity as the TEACHER, not student teacher! woohoo!<br /><br />So through all of this up and down, exciting and somewhat depressing news, I am content. I know that God has his hand in all of this and is guiding me. I'm just trusting....'moment by moment, day after day'...lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-48179426362953503512008-02-27T08:51:00.002-10:002008-02-27T09:10:32.731-10:00Trusting<span style="color: rgb(51, 153, 153);"><span style="font-style: italic;">I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. </span> (Jeremiah 29:11, The Message)</span><br /><br />So in my interview for the JET I was asked a question, or given a situation. So I get to Japan, the people I'm working with don't speak very much English, I have very little food..what do I do? Well, my answer was basically to ask my friends who have been through the program for advice. Anything would probably be helpful. Their were times in my interview that I wanted to express my faith -- that I would pray and seek God's guidance, and allow Him to carry me through this experience. They seemed to really press into the fact that it's going to be challenging, that it's going to be stressful and their probably will be days when all I want to do is quit.<br /><br />I know that it will be a challenging experience, but in some ways I feel as though God has been preparing me to <span style="font-weight: bold;">go</span><span style="font-style: italic;">. </span>College has been challenging in many ways, especially balancing my life and school, being away from home and the familiar. I have learned and grown in so many ways. I know that I haven't stopped growing and learning either. I have learned a lot about myself--my failings, flaws and imperfections. I've learned good things about myself too, but I think the negatives have helped me more to grow.<br /><br />In some ways I'm so ready to be done with school and graduate!! I can't wait! On the other hand, I'm going to miss my friends...especially three shades! I love the social aspect and life of school, except when it gets complicated and stressful. I know that I have learned a lot through my friends too. :)lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-80685321371183131222008-02-09T11:20:00.000-10:002008-02-09T11:36:05.148-10:00Jesus, Lord of HeavenJesus, Lord of Heaven,<br />I did not deserve<br />the grace that You have given<br />and the promise of Your word.<br /><br />Lord, I stand in wonder<br />of the sacrifice You made<br />with mercy beyond measure.<br />My debt You freely paid.<br /><br />Your love is deeper than the cross,<br />higher than the heavens,<br />reaches beyon the stars in the sky.<br /><br />Jesus, Your love has no bounds<br /><br />I can't say how much I love this song! It's currently my life song, because it keeps bringing me back to my first love, my true love. He's done so much for me, forgiven me, reclaimed my heart and soul. He's worthy of my praise, my life, my thoughts! His love is seriously all I need!<br /><br />This week has been stressful, sleep-depriving, confusing, but through this week I came to the realization that Jesus reigns above all of that. He surpasses my confusions and frustrations. May my eyes be fixed on Him and Him alone. May I live in the moment, not worrying about what life holds after graduation. It's frustrating because I feel like by doing that, I'm somewhat in denial that my life is going to change after graduation.<br /><br />I've grown so so so much in the past 4 years. I never thought I'd really be going to Japan. It was always just a thought and plans that Jenny & I talked about doing. I could be in Japan in less than 6 months! ahh! So exciting & scary at the same time! I definitely feel the holy spirit moving in me about going...and I'm scared to death to do it. But I know that if God's brought me this far, He's definitely gonna be with me there!lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-9788757871676634212008-02-01T14:20:00.000-10:002008-02-01T14:30:57.559-10:00Japan!So this week has been an eventful and super exciting one!! I found out that my application to teach English in Japan through the JET program was accepted for the interview process. Then I found out that my interview is in 2 weeks, on February 14th!! That's already a busy day for me, so it's going to be even busier! My parents will be up for my concert that night. I think it's actually perfect timing that they'll be here when I have my interviews. So after my interview, I'll have to wait another 2 months to find out for sure whether I'm accepted to go. I think that I have a pretty good chance of getting in, considering I'll have a degree in Education (plus, I've had a lot of experiences teaching now!)<br /><br />I'm really excited, but somewhat sad at the same time. I've developed so many friendships throughout my 4 years at Fox. I can't believe that it's my 4th year already! Time flies by soo fast! I'm both ready to be done with school but then sad to leave my friends! I feel like college graduation is a big step in life, compared to high school. Because basically I get to face the "real world" once I'm out of here. I feel prepared and confident in myself for teaching and getting a job, but I don't really want to grow up just yet. I felt so old when I was student teaching since I was around "grown-ups" all day, well and 7 year olds. It's just a different environment than being on a college campus with fun, craziness and friends!<br /><br />I'm excited to see where God leads me in the next few years. Everyone's excited for me too and that makes me happy. I know that I have a ton of support. I'm a little afraid of being "homesick" while I'm in Japan. I definitely know that if I go it'll be a challenge, but I think that it'll be amazing too!<br /><br />So even though I'm really excited and sad, I'm also a little bit confused. It's hard to start friendships/relationships, when I don't know if I'll see them again after graduation....kinda frustrating. But I guess I just have to trust that God knows what He's doing and that His timing is perfect....eh?lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-75891076433310919072008-01-17T12:55:00.000-10:002008-01-17T13:07:45.224-10:00Let it snow....<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/R4_d4_sJ4YI/AAAAAAAAABU/g9WzWCqCU80/s1600-h/Wedding+028.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/R4_d4_sJ4YI/AAAAAAAAABU/g9WzWCqCU80/s320/Wedding+028.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5156584069601550722" border="0" /></a><br />It's freezing cold!!! Right now I can't decide if I'd rather be in the hot & humid weather of home or here in this freezing cold! I love the cold, but not really when my face & hands are frozen and it makes it not want to go outside! I think that if it's going to be this cold, it should just snow!!! I took that picture as we were driving up Mt. Hood for Christmas! I can't believe it was 21 degrees & I didn't feel that cold.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/R4_ebvsJ4ZI/AAAAAAAAABc/cgK20kxEvEU/s1600-h/n1023660248_30032791_7890.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/R4_ebvsJ4ZI/AAAAAAAAABc/cgK20kxEvEU/s320/n1023660248_30032791_7890.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5156584666602004882" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/R4_enPsJ4aI/AAAAAAAAABk/FWqO_iKrwQU/s1600-h/l_3ee474c29226e2b0bf1ffd0861798d2f.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_5v7WiZqUKZk/R4_enPsJ4aI/AAAAAAAAABk/FWqO_iKrwQU/s320/l_3ee474c29226e2b0bf1ffd0861798d2f.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5156584864170500514" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: left;">My sister's wedding was beautiful and warm inside :) We had to take pictures outside before the ceremony and it was so cold! My family was freezing! I'm glad that most of my family came up for the wedding! Christmas was so much fun at Mt. Hood! We went inner-tubing ... which was fun except for the collisions that occurred. It snowed soo much Christmas day though! It was b-ea-u-tiful!<br /><br />This semester is off to a fast start already...almost 2 weeks down already! I have a feeling that it's gonna go by so fast....which is good, but makes me so sad! I have to keep up my grades but I wanna have fun too ;) Well, on that note, I should probably get back to writing my paper...ugh!<br /></div></div>lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-24200235511233730562007-12-17T14:27:00.000-10:002007-12-17T14:45:48.010-10:00contentment"everything I desire is found in Jesus."<br /><br />It's such a true statement but why is it so hard to experience it to the fullness? I sometimes wish I lived long ago when everything was slow-paced and life was enjoyed; patience was probably a true virtue. <span style="font-style: italic;">..the best things in life take time.. </span>Why is it that we look to the world to fulfill our desires and not Jesus? Life would be so much more fulfilling if we seek the face of God. It's hard to live in this world, and not be <span style="font-style: italic;">of </span>this world.<br /><br />I am truly blessed beyond measure with so many things, but I find myself longing for more. I need and want to be content but I also want to fall more deeply in love with Jesus.<br /><br />Speaking of being blessed, it's officially winter break! This semester was by far the <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">best </span></span>semester ever! Student teaching and juggling everything else I was involved in, I loved it! Their were a couple of times when I thought I wouldn't make it...but I did! I'm going to miss my 2nd graders oh so much! They were the stresses and blessings this semester. I loved teaching them, listening to their funny stories and praying for them. My heart broke a few times for the situations that they have to deal with at home. I loved being able to call them "my kids." :) In a sense they really became a part of me...I spent over 500 hours with them this semester, taught them new things and spent LOTS of time with them. I loved getting hugs & all of their really cute cards. It's amazing how big of an influence a child's teacher can become to them...even a student teacher.<br /><br />One more semester left...of gen. ed's. UGH! I'm not all that thrilled, but I'm excited to be back on campus and spend my last semester with my friends and making new ones! I'll also be finding out about the JET program, interviews and whether or not I'll be teaching in Japan next year!! SO exciting & really scary!<br /><br />Well, I can't wait to see my family soon! It'll be an exciting & very busy break...my sister's WEDDING!, Mt. Hood for Christmas, California for the rest of break!! :)<br /><br />"Rejoice in the Lord ALWAYS!"lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-266054446340065332007-09-15T13:35:00.000-10:002007-09-15T13:44:50.856-10:00graceI have a gracious and loving God who is truly carrying me every step of the way..especially this past week....<br /><br />Life has been busy and crazy, to say the least. But it has been great too! Student teaching is already off to a great start..I have a great school, staff and class to work with! I am learning so much and the 2nd graders are cute! They're pretty fun to teach and they have so much energy. I love it! So I love being in the classroom & school, the not so fun part is having senior seminar once a week, which means...HOMEWORK! We have to read a book for that class, plus do assignments like attend school board meetings, write reflections, & video myself teaching. And..a work sample! (the 100 page document of lesson plans, standards, etc etc) It's ridiculous. But..it's my last one that I have to do!! (i've already done 2!)<br /><br />So yes, life is crazy. But I am really enjoying it. I've been trying my best to manage my time between teaching, planning, BaNd, being the female chaplain for the band, and hanging out with friends, plus practicing 6 hours a week! Crazy..YES?!?<br /><br />On top of all that...all of my roommates are sick, plus some of my friends that are student teaching too! I'm trying my best to stay healthy! :)<br /><br />I came upon this verse in the bible...about being joyful always, praying continuously and giving Thanks in ALL circumstances. I kinda feel like that's like my life verse. Especially recently. A friend asked me how I can be so cheerful all of the time..my response; i can be grouchy too. haha.<br /><br />"Be joyful ALWAYS, pray CONTINUOUSLY, give THANKS in ALL circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."Philippians 4:6<br /><br />Oh ya...i'm gonna be 21 in TWO days!lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-12512544231498135072007-08-10T22:09:00.000-10:002007-08-10T22:19:46.776-10:00memory lane...As I was cleaning today I was reading some old letters and cards...and reminiscing the good, crazy and hard times. Sometimes I enjoy taking a trip down memory lane, but not always. I think I've finally gotten to a point where my trip down memory lane allows me to see my growth and change. Sometimes I regret things, like not listening to the advice of my friends...but in the end, I realize that God never left me. He was definitely always with me, and still is.<br /><br />Pictures, letters, cards...those help me to remember my past. I sometimes wonder "what if" or maybe my life might not be what it is now had I chosen or done things differently int the past. God's been teaching me that taking that trip down memory lane shouldn't be "what if's" but it should be more like...<span style="font-style: italic;">how did i grow..how have i changed since then..and what did i learn</span>.<br /><br />It's so amazing how God uses our memories and past experiences to teach us things about ourselves and shows us ways we can change. I'm learning that. But it's a process.<br /><br />I feel like I've grown so much since I graduated high school and throughout college. I'm so glad that I went away to school. Its given me an appreciation for home, but I also feel that maybe God's calling me to come back home after i graduate.<br /><br />Since I led a few bible studies and helped out several times with the Youth group at church, a part of me feels as though God might be calling me to this ministry. Not as a job, but as a part of the church. Since I grew up in this church I kinda feel a sense of responsibility and ministry to give back what I've received. I'm super excited for this youth group having new leadership and new teachers helping out. I'm kinda sad that I'll be leaving soon. But I can't wait to see what God has in store!<br /><br />Oregon bound in 11 days.lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-47502720584994446842007-07-28T21:40:00.000-10:002007-07-28T21:53:45.783-10:00randomnessSometimes I wonder when in the world time is going....it's always when I'm enjoying life that it goes by so fast, yet when i'm not all that thrilled about life it drags.<br /><br />I seriously do have several things to do before school starts again. Included in that list is the Praxis that i take in a week! I'm not ready nor am i prepared! And, I really have to pass because I don't want to pay for it again! I think I'll be fine with the math, but i need to practice the reading & writing sections.<br /><br />I'm soo excited for going back to school! Well, mostly for student teaching! I'm stoked to be able to experience the prep, first day school and first several months of school. I have an amazing cooperating teacher and I'm sure the 2nd graders will be precious!<br /><br />In continuation of this random blog...God is continuing to teach me so much despite the different setbacks throughout this summer. But I'm so thankful that I am alive & well (mostly). The eye surgery went well, family time has been great and I couldn't have asked for better friends. One prayer request though is for my right toe...so I dropped a can of corn on it last week at camp. Ever since then it's just gotten worse (well, it looks awful) but thankfully it's not infected (and pray that it continues to remain Uninfected!). Its been quite the ride with this toe, including a visit to the ER at 5am, and going to the doctor again several days later. So yes, despite all the pain that I've gone through, the Lord's been with me every step of the way. :)<br /><br />"How can I keep from singing your praise<br />How can I ever say enough, how amazing is your love<br />How can i keep from shouting your name<br />I know I am LOVED by the King and it makes my heart wanna sing!"lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-71999450073466835502007-07-06T15:26:00.001-10:002007-07-07T01:03:54.231-10:00Beautiful in the eyes of JesusWhat does it mean to be beautiful? I've been thinking about this question since I've been reading Captivating again. As I was talking with a friend about it, it was hard for me to think of one person that I think is beautiful. I hated to admit it but my idea of being beautiful was the physical, outward appearance of beauty. I've never thought of beauty being inward because our culture puts so much value on our outward beauty.<br /><br />I'm learning to see beauty through the eyes of God. He's been teaching me that beauty comes from inside and radiates from the inside out. That makes me think of that song "From the inside out." Just as my love for Jesus comes 'from the inside out' so does my beauty; apparently. It's still somewhat hard for me to feel that I am beautiful.<br /><br />The great thing though: Jesus thinks I'm beautiful. And to me, that's really the only thing that matters.<br /><br />"You are beautiful in the eyes of the one who made you"lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-28987502570703932712007-07-04T21:52:00.000-10:002007-07-05T21:58:04.756-10:00Vulnerable but blessedSo I've been re-reading "Captivating" for the past week and God has been revealing much and speaking many words to me. So I just read how as women, I have feelings of vulnerability. I looked up the definition of this word and got this: <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">capable of being physically or emotionally wounded. <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /></span></span></span></span> <p style="color: rgb(192, 192, 192);" class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">It seems like a lot of women are really vulnerable...and I think it's because we are already wounded. This is crazy to think that so many women feel this way and it already holds us back or causes us to control or dominate others. I've been learning a lot about the Garden of Eden and how all of Eve's actions have affected the role of women. The greatest thing I've learned is that I exemplify the qualities of God by being a women AND that God feels everything that I feel. Like when I'm feeling lonely or feeling like no one cares about me, that God feels that way about me. He wants and desires me to run to Him always! I don't know if this makes perfect sense to others, it's kind of hard to explain.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">And then there's always God's beautiful creation reminding me of His love for me. I seriously want to get married..well, at least have my reception at the Turtle Bay Resort! I got to stay there last night with my family. It's one of the most beautiful, relaxing places ever! Besides getting sunburn today, it was so nice! So expensive, but amazing!! It was fun to play "tourist" on my own island. =)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">"God gives us opportunities to do the things we ask.." from Evan Almighty. I've never really thought about that before. But I can see that being true..like when we ask him to help us be patient, He does so by providing a situation in which we are able to be patient. Sometimes I wonder if God really does laugh at us. I mean, some of the things I do, say or think are probably really ridiculous and funny to Him. I'm sure He gets a kick out of his children. But I also know that He also hurts with us. I can't express how amazing our God really is.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">I'm so glad for this summer, despite the setbacks & laziness and feelings of uselessness and boredom, I know that God is working in me & teaching me many things.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">"Sing to the Lord a new song, for he has done marvelous things..." Psalm 98:1</span><o:p></o:p></p>lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2567117652794532982.post-1787922393291250522007-06-17T15:02:00.000-10:002007-06-17T15:07:47.162-10:00Divine Romance"The fullness of Your grace is here with me<br />The richness of Your beauty’s all I see<br />The brightness of Your glory has arrived<br />In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied<br /><br />For You I sing I dance<br />Rejoice in this divine romance<br />Lift my heart and my hands<br />To show my love, to show my love<br /><br />A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You<br />Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room<br />Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life<br />In Your presence God I’m completely satisfied"<br /><br />God Provides. God's ravishing, unending love never ceases to amaze me. I love this song. It expresses the joy that I feel while basking in the love of Christ.<br /><br />Okay, so I got to watch the "Love Comes Softly" series...amazing! In this one scene this guy was asking why God allows bad things happen to good people...and the other guy said that God doesn't necessarily allow it, but He promises us that He will always be there beside us, with us, carrying us, etc. And...that got me thinking. Sometimes I think that bad things are like a punishment...maybe sometimes it is? But still, God always makes good of everything. I believe that God can be glorified in all situations; whether good or bad.lovelyfaithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15441470736133065930noreply@blogger.com1