I have much to be thankful for and I hate that feeling that I still want more. I have my "dream" job and am doing what I love (even if it gets overwhelming at times). I have a roof over my head, a great family, amazing friends and a lot of little things that I am thankful for. This time of transitioning is definitely harder than being in college. I guess when I was in college my focus was of graduating college and getting good grades. The next step was finding a job in my field, which I have, and the next would be marriage & a family, and own a house or apartment.
In the past month I have been so stressed and overwhelmed with work & PD classes that it made me foresee my future. I was doubting and wondering how life would be while working in a high-demanding, never-ENDing job while being a MOM/wife. ahhh! I just can't imagine how working Mom's do it all and keep their sanity! I realized that I am grateful to be starting out now while I have the extra time and openness in my life at the moment to work & take classes. Even though it may be extremely difficult at times, I think it'll be worth it later on down the road.
Contentment is what I'm always striving for, and it is when I am not content that I get myself into trouble. I love this quote that I read in a magazine..."May our desire to have what God has kept from us (marriage, family, $, etc) not keep us from ENJOYING what he has given to us." I constantly have to remind myself of this, because I'm always the one looking back on the past and missing it, when I usually wasn't enjoying it at the time. I am learning to trust the One who knows me best, to take one day at a time and keep my eyes fixed on Him; the author and perfecter of my faith.